As I struggled through the exam, I remembered the time during the online course that I watched a simulation of some feature of Access 2007, the database portion of the Microsoft Office 2007 Suite, and laughed out loud.
"What?" I had thought, as the demonstration played out onscreen. It was funny because it was all gobbledygook to me, and I wondered "who can understand this stuff?"
Yeah, funny at the time, but now as I floundered during the timed 50-minute online test, it dawned on me that those who hope to get a job using Access 2007 probably can understand "this stuff", or at least they'd better.
Mercifully the fifty minutes of sweating went by fast, and soon the truth was at hand, visible for me and Shane, the CertiPort test administrator, to see:
It felt strangely good. It smelled good. The smell of failure in the morning. The sweet smell of failure.
Why? Because all my life, fearing failure, I usually avoid anything that I suspect will result in failure.
"Hey, let's do this certain thing! Where's Steve?"
Hear the screech of my tires and see my rapidly diminishing taillights.
So failure is rare for me since I never attempt anything too difficult.
This failure made me feel a certain pride. I tried something that I had no real chance of succeeding at. Study and study and more study gave me an overconfident feeling based simply on the time I'd "spent" on it. Yes, it was hilarious to see all the "mumbo jumbo" in the lessons. Sort of a shock to find that they don't give you a passing grade just for showing up. This paragraph is all messed up and confused. What I'm trying to say is that I'm happy to have a Failure because it means I had a Try.
Failure is fun!
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